3:15 experiment poetry: tool of transmission of transformation

Friday August 1, 2003

it’s 315 time again
i go to lie on my side to write
but the baby is there
i can’t lie on the baby
it’s like lying on a watermelon
large and hard

the baby sleeps right now
no movement–i’m awkward
trying to find a way
to comfortably write i’m strained
as constrained as the baby at 29 weeks
we are alike today in that way
both trying to get comfortable
to get some sleep
the baby can see light
a red glow seeps through my belly
can hear sound but probably not
the crickets outside or
daddy making his going to sleep sigh
hmm mmm mmmm he says

the notebook too is pregnant
uncomfortable it doesn’t
want to open to bend back
to receive anymore
it too is slightly bent
out of shape its spirals
damaged well traveled but
empty of much writing

as i slide down scoot down
slip down off my pillows
losing my great grip on my place
the angle of the pen
the lightness of the ink
indicates betrays its discomfort
the pen is pregnant too
pregnant with poems with desire
to be a useful tool
yet more than a tool of transmission
a tool of transformation
i too am that tool
one of transmission of transformation
the baby in my belly
the pen in my hand

This is one of the poems I read last  Tuesday March 15, 2011 at 7:30pm in the Artists Union Gallery for the first reading from my new poetry collection Middle of the Night Poems From Daughter to Mother :: Mother to Son (en theos press 2011).  I’ll be posting links to all the poems I read next Monday so you can experience a “virtual” reading if you weren’t able to be there in person!

Pictured above is the broadside that was published in ArtLife Limited Editions in November 2003; it’s also on the inside cover of Middle of the Night. The original painting of my pregnant belly by Alan Sailer (with some manipulation by me) is a recurring motif in the book (it’s pictured in color on the back of the book too).

After Alan painted the clock, my belly was photographed by Tim Timmermans and I then used an ink printer in blue then copied the poem on top in black. Broadsides were signed and numbered and published in ArtLife Limited Editions in November 2003. I still have some for sale if you are interested. If you click on the image, it will enlarge and you can see more detail.

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